Future

So, I don't know what it is about today that makes me feel so ready to move on with the next phase in my life, but I'm in one of those moods. I'm in one of those moods to go out and explore the world with my loved one, to buy my own place (or rent) and decorate it and call it my own, doing anything I like to it. I want to go out at whatever time I feel like it and not come home if I don't want to or find a better place to stay at. I want to blare music from my TV and dance around naked just because I can. I want to flip to Food Network and try out a new recipe as its being made while cooking from the comfort of my own kitchen, with my own food, my own cutlery, and my own guinea pig (a.k.a. husband) to try it on when he gets home (that is, if I don't eat it first myself because I make it so deliciously well!). I want to go to the pound and save a puppy from being put to sleep, give it a home, food and shelter and unconditional love, and watch it grow and wag its tail and stick out its tongue on desperation when I get home to give me kisses.

I'm just ready.

I feel so trapped here sometimes... like I've reached the end of a chapter and want to turn the page but the next one is glued and wont come off... I want to unglue it, I want to delve into new things already... I think I'm tired of the old. I'm tired of answering to my parents, of having to do this and that and try to please their every demand yet they're never happy enough with me to let any issue go. There's always something that I do wrong, no matter how hard i try. So I feel like letting go and doing things for me... for my own heart... for my boyfriends heart whom I value so much... For those who don't have a place and a family and would give anything to have one and wouldn't bicker about stupid things and complain about money when they have so much of it and are just being selfish...

Ugh.

So frustrating.

I hope that I set sail on my new path soon... For now, I have 3 finals to study for next Tuesday and a shift that I've just picked up for tomorrow morning so I can earn some extra money, but... I wish the future would come.

I need it.