Been a while since I actually wrote anything down, but I feel like that's how it's going to be really, especially now that school is going to start. I'm not going to have time to do anything, not even enjoy my growing baby boy anymore :( He's 50 pounds already, just reached 5 months 2 days ago. Growing boy.... growing VERY BIG boy. Here he is, just yesterday.
He's my pride and joy, and looovesss to go on car rides, as you can see. I guess I got him used to that though, since I declared him my boyfriend and I's baby, so I would drive him to my boyfriend at least once a week, usually twice. He never leaves my side (he's sleeping next to my bed at the moment and just finished "showering" with me) and begs to be taken when I leave the house... I try to oblige, but not when I go to work or have other things to do. He usually tags along though, for the trivial things like picking up some food for lunch or taking someone somewhere.
Anyway, school starts in 2 weeks. I'm extremely excited, yet very nervous. I've already pressured myself into getting straight A's or if not, I'm going to kill myself LOL. I'm nervous because I feel like this is something I really want to pursue, really want to do, and I need to get excellent grades if I have any hopes of continuing on. I'm hoping to assist a professor in their lab research this fall... I have an interview with the professor this Friday, to help and volunteer in her lab in the research process for cystic fibrosis. I'm hoping that this will help put me ahead of most other biology majors looking to pursue internships next summer, and in addition, give me a solid background to work off of on my resume when I apply to the job in the CDC once I graduate. I will hopefully be in the RISE program and be paid to assist in the laboratory next fall for a year, until my graduation.... of course, if everything goes according to plan.
Everything depends on those grades.
And then, on the other hand, I have my personal life creeping up on me. Incredible that I will be 20 in just 1 short month... I had my life all set up and planned to get married around 21/22, start having kids at 24, close the factory at 29... and I feel like life is just flying me by. Just 2 years ago, it seemed distant, and now it's looming ahead like an oncoming train with no intentions of stopping for anyone. I've discussed with my boyfriend about getting married and we have a plan... of course, getting married after receiving our Bachelor's, although I feel that we might get married before he finishes his. Unfortunately (and fortunately), he's a store manager, and works 40+ hours a week, so he has to go to school part time. I'm proud of him for being so diligent and to continue forward even when hardships have come his way, and he is a source of inspiration for me there.... to continue on through the battle, knowing that the war is yet to be won.
So... perhaps getting married in about 2 years, although he should pop the question soon? If I'm not mistaken, you're supposed to be engaged about a year in order to have enough preparation to plan everything.. we'll see, I guess, lol. I'm very excited to see what he does... despite all the arguments we might have and differences, I love him with all my heart and soul, and would never switch him for anyone else nor change anything about him.... ok, maybe his stubbornness at times, LOL.
But yes... and then there's the whole question about if I get the job in Atlanta, Georgia... are we going to move up together? Even if we're not married by then? Should I go to grad school first in Georgetown University in Washington, D.C. ? (which btw, has one of the most UNIQUE programs on bioterrorism and emerging infectious diseases as a masters program.... CAN YOU SAY EXCITED?!?!). Or should I work for a year and then go to grad school, hoping to find a job in D.C. with the government??? I'm not sure exactly where I'll end up, but I know the future holds many things in store, and I'm very excited for it... especially for the part where I get paid 81k straight out of school! :)
So... lots of things to think about. But as ever the important reminder, the present is what's here, not the future. So I'm going to make the best of it, strive for perfection, love all I can, and wait for the future with open arms.
:)
see you aoon.
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