Hello from Starbucks!!

I'm so glad my store got new furniture. I can sit outside and enjoy the wonderful weather while I study... :) And since it's daylight savings time, the sun won't be going down until about 6pm, which gives me 2 more hours to study and do everything I want to go. Hooray!!

The fair yesterday was great!! I wont lie, my hip was giving me problems half the time, but it was fun. I ate like a pig, but shh! Don't tell anyone. That's about all we did actually... walk around and eat. I think we rode maybe 3 rides, of which the Ferris wheel was included (as always) and watched some kind of show there which was okay... nothing too spectacular.

I just finished taking my anatomy exam not too long ago... I think I did great!! It feels nice to be confident after learning about I don't know how many muscles... we'll see what the grades are. My lecture exam is next tuesday, and my forensics is tomorrow, of which I'm going to study for as soon as I finish this blog. I went ahead and treated myself to a manicure though... not only did I desperately need it, I think I deserved it :) So go me! I'll have to take off the nail polish by tomorrow night because I work Friday, but oh well. At least I get to enjoy it for a day.

Anyway, let me get going. I need to get these things done so that I can be worry free next weekend.... BOSTON, I'M ALMOST THERE!!!

:)

I hate how I have bad luck.

It never seems to leave me alone.

I think this year is just horrible... I mean, I'm making a huge deal out of something that will fix itself in a couple of days, but goddamn it makes me mad that it happens at such an opportune moment.

My lovely hip dysplasia, or so it seems, has come back to haunt me from my ballet days. Apparently wearing my heels to school today and walking a very long distance in them made it come back (stupid me, I should've thought about this) and now I can't take a step without being in pain and my hip making a "popping" noise. I know people are going to be looking at me funny when I go to the fair now with my boyfriend, old boss and her kids, but whatever. I'll limp my way around the fair grounds if I have to. At least I'll get to eat while looking like a hunchback, lol.

It's nice to be able to lie down in bed for a bit though... I've got about an hour before my boyfriend picks me up and I'm contemplating going to sleep for a little bit. I'm so dead tired :( All I want to do is curl up after a good meal with some warm blankets and forget about the world for a good 24 hours, but finals are beating down on my back with their words and reviews, and work is waking me up at obnoxious hours to go serve people damn coffee... and my family is demanding responsibilities in the little time I come home in between school and work... I feel horribly overwhelmed. I laugh it off and don't show it to anyone, but man am I stressed. :( I can't tell you how much I'm looking forward to Boston and getting away for the weekend with absolutely NO worries except what the hell I'm going to eat and what I'm going to visit that day.

My anatomy review book is taunting me right now... staring at me from the side of the bed and saying "if you don't open me, you're going to fail your exam tomorrow...." but I spent such a long ass time studying yesterday... I couldn't even walk today without being aware of what muscles are working in order for me to put one foot in front of the other!! And when my hip started hurting, I gave an entire explanation about what was probably causing my pain to my best friend over text... how sad is that? I mean, good to review, but I'd hate to be my best friend really... have to hear all that crap 24/7 for the next 3 weeks while i review for my exams...

Oh!

And let's not even go into my forensics exam on thursday that I have to create a review for!! Marijuana, hallucinogens, anthrax, explosives... I have such an array of subjects that I study, no wonder I always have random facts. I wonder if people think I'm crazy sometimes when I start talking about biological attacks on the U.S. when my major is Nursing....

Ah well, I guess I'm going to go visit Youtube and entertain myself for the next half hour... probably just for 10 minutes actually. The anatomy review book is still taunting me... no, i'm not crazy, just severely stressed :(

Don't judge me.

I'll be back to normal in 3 weeks.

I promise...

Maybe.

Einstein

This man was a genius with his bagel, egg and cheese and coffee.

So much more so than Starbucks I have to say.

As usual, I'm sitting here in the atrium of my school, already finished my breakfast and contemplating another... what is it with me and hunger lately?? I don't think I'll be getting up to get another because, well, I'm broke for one (and going to the fair tonight, I don't know how I'm going to manage that), and on the other hand, I need to stop eating so much!!! Breakfast has become like a binging streak for me... maybe it's that I got so used to taking my steroids in the morning with a large breakfast to avoid an upset stomach that my body has already adjusted... I've grown to love breakfast actually...

On other news, I managed to sleep last night! Hooray!! I thought I was going to have the most difficult time going to sleep after reading all those muscles and memorizing their locations but nope!! i got a lovely call from my boyfriend to say goodnight and I love you, and I think that sent me right off into lala land... nice ending to a tough day, and an even tougher day today. I realized a bit late last night that my day is going to keep going for a while, and I need to be up at 5 to work at 5:30am to 11a, go home, shower, study some more and my exam is at 2pm... it's going to be hell, but I know I can get through it.

And I will NOT get anything lower than an A this time!!

I feel stupid for having done horribly on my first exam... it sucks. But I guess that's life, that's my lesson, and that's my kick in the butt telling me that I need to get my shit together. I've only got 3 weeks left until the end of the semester and the beginning of the rest of my life... sort of. I've got a summer break and then a year and a half from hell in Nursing school to go, and then I will be free!! Maybe married by then, and thinking about a baby... yay! The future makes me so excited... but for now, i've got the present to focus on.

Speaking of which, I should get my lazy hands off this keyboard and onto my chemistry textbook. I didn't have time to review my notes last night since I was so intently studying anatomy, and I need to catch up on that class so I don't fall behind.

Blog you laterrrr. I'll try to take pictures at the fair :)

Namaste.

P.S. - I miss yoga!

Rectus Femoris, Sartorius, Semimembraneous...

I have a gazillion muscles running through my mind right now!!

Gracilis, brachioradialis, latissimus dorsi, trapezius, deltoid, scapular spine, deltoid tuberosity...

Good gracious, my mind is just swimming with anatomical landmarks.

Aortic semilunar valve, pulmonary trunk, left atrium and ventricle, interventricular septum, tricuspid valve, apex and base of the left lung which contains the lingula not found in the right lung which includes a middle lobe in addition to its superior and inferior lobe...

I think I'm going to go crazy.

Just had to blog my insanity before I went to bed and got up to go to anatomy class in less than 8 hours.

FML.

Excited!!

Once again, it is Monday!!

But this weekend has been so wonderful... I spent a lovely time with my boyfriend the majority of the weekend, got some things done, spent some time with my family as well and are looking to get a dog (probably a puppy) soon, hopefully for my dad's birthday on Sunday. I attached a picture of the puppy we saw, which I think would be perfect for my dad (although the dog might get a little bigger than expected, but I'm sure my dad won't mind). I really want to get a Mastiff or a Saint Bernard, even if they're not purebred, but I know I'll get way too attatched to the dog, and then when I leave my house and my parents take him I'll be upset, so it's better if I think in the long run and that this dog will be for my dad more than anything.

In other news, I don't want to jinx myself or spoil myself, but I am SO VERY EXCITED about something. :) :) :) I can't exactly say what it is, I believe that if you talk too much about a good thing it'll go away, so I'm going to keep my mouth shut about it, but I'm very very VERY excited about the future. I think I'm looking at a positive for once this year... everything has been really tough, but I'm starting to see a shining ray of sunlight at the end of the tunnel, and hopefully it's paradise and not an oncoming train, LOL.

Well, just wanted to update really quick. I've got to head to school in this atrocious tornado weather so I suppose I'll be writing to you tomorrow morning, from my bagel egg and cheese with coffee seminar in the school's cafeteria... the usual, you know? Lol. Exams this week, so I've got to hop to it and study (hooray... sarcasm).

Namaste!!

Belief

Hello everyone!

Well, mostly to myself... I've come to realize not many follow this blog (1 person, lol!) and I'm not sure they even read it, so this is more of a time to talk to myself more than anything I think.

I don't remember the last time I updated, but plenty happened. I'm going to give a rough overview....

1. I woke up for work Friday morning and heard my dog crying in lots of pain. My dad told me that they took him the night before to the hospital while I was asleep and found a huge tumor in his liver and spleen, and that we would have to put him down.

2. Spend the day from hell, crying and snapping at customers (because I still had to go to work) while my parents went to get a second opinion for the dog.

3. Got home and met my uncle for the first time ever in my life (he decided to come back when he heard about my grandmother's surgery), had a bunch of people in the house, and then went to go see my dog... said that we should keep him until he stops eating, and just give him pain meds... he might still have a couple of months. I was distraught and didn't want to put him through any more pain and just put him to sleep right away, but my mom insisted to wait, so we brought him home.

4. My dog did a 360 and is now eating and playing with his pain meds, so thank God... I know that we have to let him go eventually, and probably soon (the tumor is halfway through his liver and unremovable) but at least we get to spend some more time with him.

My dad has been the most devastated of all. He's been crying, because as you know, a dog is a man's best friend, and especially Dale (that's my dogs name). So... yep. It's been a horribly tough month, seriously, lol. I don't know how we all have tumors... I was just talking to my mom about this a while ago and wondering why it is that across species we've developed tumors while living in the same house, but... I don't know. I think I'm going to investigate it and see what's going on. If it's this house, then we need to move.. this isn't the first dog of ours that develops a tumor, plus me and my grandmother? Kind of odd already...

My mom just called me to go to the pound and see about another dog... oh boy. We'll see how this goes... the problem is that my grandmother is always home alone, and she's never been without another dog, another companion in the house... when Dale decides to go, she'll be alone and that's not what we want for her... she needs somebody here with her, and unfortunately, my life is already moving at the speed of light so I can't stay home to spend it with her... I guess I'll take pictures and see what happens.

On other news, I finally got to go to the beach yesterday... in fact, let me just start by saying that my boyfriend has been SO incredible with me this past week... we spent such a lovely weekend together (albeit not 24/7, but plenty more time than we usually do). He's made such a huge effort... Friday he came over when he found out about the dog, then went out to dinner with his parents (a feat I'm so very proud and happy for him because he needed that time with his parents again), and then later on at night texted me to see how I was doing (I had gone to the movies with an old coworker of ours) and invited me over... spent some time in bed with him, fell asleep, woke up to the most amazing kiss.... and the next morning got a goodmorning text message, then a call to go to the beach with some of his friends, and spent the rest of the day like that with him till we spent some alone time at night and he brought me back home, and voila, here I am today!!

I know that he's extremely tired, but I appreciate everything and all the effort he's done for me this past week, including all the test messages and calls and conversations and time together... my heart hasn't fluttered like this in a while, and it is DEFINITELY fluttering right now... I want to do something for him to show him my appreciation at his efforts, but I don't know what to do right now (my mind is racing with finals for school and we're already heading on the Boston trip in 2 weeks), so... we'll see. I'll come up with something though, he's been way too much of a sweetheart for me to let this pass me by. I made sure I thanked him last night for everything, but he was half asleep while driving so I don't think he got the full measure of my thankfulness, lol.

Anywho, let me get going. My mom wants to go to the pound and it closes at 4, and it's already 12pm and I need to shower and still have some homework and other things to get done.

I'll blog tomorrow more than likely... another week commences for me!!

Namaste.

HOORAY!!!

I just had to post a lovely blog about my acceptance to the accelerated BSN program for Nursing at Barry University!!

I'm still holding out for FIU (because that's my number one school), but at least I have a back up planned, complete with an 8000 dollar scholarship from them and help from Florida Bright Future's!! GO ME!!!

Okay, carry on :)